is the river flowing through me, or am i drowning in it?

In spite of having SO MUCH on my mind, I am at peace.

Blogging has been hard. I have A LOT that I want to pour out to the world, but I realize that the thoughts have been burdens which must be poured out to the Lord first.

I feel a nudging from the Lord to continue this blog with Him as the center. That has been where I've been leaning in the past months since Priska was here: since I learned about my mentoring spirit, my desire to encourage, and this eye for beauty. Gifts.

I am not to dwell on how these things will be utilized, but I am blessed to realize that God has been using me in ways that I am not even aware of.

Out of the blue, He touches me by revealing a glimpse of the affects that his words have. I get excited, giddy. Oh gee... USE ME, LORD.

"Here I am, I have come— it is written about me in the scroll. I desire to do your will, O my God; your law is within my heart."

He rejoices in my delight in Him, then calms my heart by saying "COME" "ABIDE" "BE"
Words which have been so profound in my life. "Just BE, little one."

The river of truth overwhelms me, but I find peace in His arms.

After surrender, the words just flow at a manageable rate. From the depths of my heart, or His? There is no TRY, no deliberation. Only fluidness, calmness... or so appears. How can I withhold its mighty pull?